The "I Want a Job" Blues...

Ask me how I'm feeling. I'll give you: tired, stressed, annoyed, frustrated, let down, yet slightly hopeful.

Ask me what I want. I'll respond: "A job!"

Now you begin to ask, "Christina, why are you frustrated?" And I'll give you, "Because I haven't heard back from a job I interviewed with 2 weeks ago. I called HR a week after and recieved a very blah response. "The staff has not yet made a decision, the position has not been filled." So I'm still sitting here wondering and hoping with a huge weight on my shoulders. I've thought about how much I want this job and I really want it.

This leads to the second issue I'm struggling with that just pushes down on the feelings I mentioned above. See, I've become use to the grueling truth that I live quite a ways away from my ideal job. I've given into going the mile. Is it too much to ask to work at a school I could literally walk to? I can't even begin to explain this surreal feeling I get everytime I imagine myself walking to school as their future employee. Actually I can picture it quite well and I have a huge smile on my face while I do so!

You see, there is still a job listed at said school for Kindergarten and when I emailed today to see if this posting had been filled they responded with, "We will know by Friday if we need to interview for this job." Once again I'm left with a response that raises my hopes unfairly. I'm lost as to how I should be feeling.

I am a very systematic, organized, and routine-friendly fan! I need order in my life and I'm not sure how well subbing will fulfill this need. Do not get me wrong, I am thankful for any and all teaching jobs handed my way. Money and experience is money and experience right? Well, I'm just at a point in my life where I can't ignore this little, tiny, itsy-bisty ray of hope I can see.

I'm thankful to my friends who remind me everyday that stressing is a waste of time, the right thing will come my way and for those of you who share in this same feeling of not knowing what tomorrow will bring.

Here's to being optimistic, determined, hopeful and a whole bunch of luck- if it even exists!

Continuing the Job Hunt

It's been a stressful couple of months trying to find a job, a job the fits and makes me happy without being picky during these times. I've found the Snohomish SD online job opportunities site to be most promising. I check it everyday and I see at least one new opening a week. In fact, I've even began applying for classified (paraeducators, etc.) jobs as well.

Last Wednesday I was called for a preschool para job in the district and I was extremely pleased with how the interview went. I was able to meet both teachers and the principal and I left feeling great! Is this a step in the wrong direction? Hard to say. I like routines, and this job would provide me a daily and automatic schedule. While there is little to no curriculum in this opportunity, I am extremely excited to see where these kiddos come from developmentally and I would enjoy seeing how far them come over the year. How fun would it be to help them get ready for Kindergarten!

I am waiting to hear back about the job and it's a hard decision to make. Do I take the job if offered? What if I get another certificated opportunity? As you can imagine my mind is going a little crazy.

Just recently I've seen a few more postings, one for a first grade job in Lake Stevens, and a 2nd grade and 4th grade in Snohomish. I would be so greatful for any one of these. I'm hoping to get a call. I just keep telling myself, "What's meant to be will be."

I am so proud to keep reading about all the cohort friends of mine who are landing their dream jobs in local districts. I know they are doing fabulous!